School work, Lack of motivation.... ugh

*sigh...* Recently I haven't been active due to school work, lack of motivation, and getting nothing out of deviantart other than the enjoyment of ordering commissions and drawing when im bored... I don't get any views, and its hard to pick back up where you left off... Art has always been my favorite thing to do, and its also been my dream job for YEAAARS now... Obviously though, I need to upgrade my equipment and keep practicing, hopefully ill be getting an Wacom tablet soon, and I can practice more on paint tool sai, but even then... Life for me is just getting slowly more depressing, im not even excited for Halloween now.... And Halloween has been literally my favorite holiday since I was a kid (I love sweets).... Plus school honestly sucks, ive been doing everything right, or so I thought, now im struggling to get rid of a ___ (not gonna say because the grade is absolutely horrible) The reason I bought core membership, I don't really know, but im hoping to pick up the slack in the upcoming months...